What made you stop being an addict?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

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Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

This was February 2019.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

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I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

As Fox news spent most of a day attacking Kamala Harris about plastic straws or paper? What is going on with them? Was it some kind of joke as they have nothing else to say?

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Why do so many men on the internet try to compete with women, or try to "humble" and bash them? There's so many videos across my tiktok and YouTube of men claiming how they're wanting to get back at women and put them in thier place.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

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So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

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And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Read that again ☝️

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

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So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

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It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

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There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

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I did it in my administrator's office.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

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I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

And I can also talk to them now.

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RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

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The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Why do women stubbornly refuse to let men lead, even though they are attracted to the man, and the man both loves and desires them? Why do they get angry and blame the man when he gets fed up and walks away, when it's entirely their own fault?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Just keep trying

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.